Ugh i wish Syd lived in Wisconsin 😔

I swear, all the guys I actually have luck with are never within this damn state… Why why why??😒

U Should’ve Known Better - Monica

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"Do not whine… Do not complain. Work harder. Spend more time alone."

Joan Didion, Blue Nights (via heidisaman)

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"I’m going to love
no matter how much I lose.
I cannot give up."

I just want somebody to see and love me for me. Not for what I look like on the outside..

I feel like society pressures me to be skinny in order to get guys’ attentions. I mean yeah, I want to lose weight for me, but honestly it sucks that it’s so hard to even make friends because I’m overweight at the moment. Sometimes I wonder, would I want to be friends with people who’d start talking to me once I lost weight? I mean, I’d finally get the attention that I’ve wanted, but at the same time, those aren’t the type of people I’d want to be friends with. I want to meet real friends by showing them my personality now, then they’d stick with me throughout the whole weight loss process and never look at me as a person differently! Why is that so difficult. 

Things like this honestly makes me want to corner myself away from the world. I just want to go away for a while, not having to work or worry about money/homework, and just lose all this weight (30-40 lbs). It would help make myself happier and more self-confident. I’d also like to meditate and focus on more positive things in life. Then maybe, once I’ve come back, my overall atmosphere will be enlightened. Then I could actually some luck with meeting new people. :p

If only I could take the time, haha.